From Sara -
I do feel very strongly that there's really no such thing as regrets that you have to experience. It's definitely a choice to feel regret. So yeah, there isn't a solution to not feeling lost. I think it's just whatever strategies someone could come up with to have faith in their decision, even if it's the wrong one, just stick by it and know that no one can predict the future.
From Maria -
And at this point I'm really just so exhausted. Like my therapy sessions are not really worth it because I feel like I'm kind of stuck. Because it was so intense and it was so exhausting and I just am so, so tired. That's the feeling I have. I'm really tired.
From Meg -
I feel like lots of times when I've felt stuck, I have started... like my sister always knows when I'm not happy with my job because I started a side project.
But I'd say like, if you're in a space where you are not really sure what to do next, then maybe an interesting way to approach it is to document all the ideas that have been kicking around. Like anything that you have wanted to build or do or try write it all down just so it's not obstructing any of your brain space. And then pick one of those to focus on. Because that way it's like, "Okay, like I am being intentional about my choice. Like what am I trying to explore here without permanently saying no to any of these other things". You know, if I go down this road and decide “oh this actually is not the thing that I want to experiment with”, go back and pull another thing. But lots of times, those are great ways to learn things, connect with other people and just get a little bit more clarity on what feels good to you.
From Lorna -
My ego is still very strong and so it's kind of been a bummer. Like I'm still dealing with this, I'm still here and like I've been feeling a lot of like internal pull because I have been sucked into whatever the negative direction I was going in or thinking. Like having frustrations around a friend’s behavior or actions. Whereas before, it was just one-sided. Now the other side of the tug of war is spirituality, being aware of love and this new recognition. And so I'm not letting myself go in that negative direction, but it’s still a direction that exists within me. It's still so strong. And so I know that this will be a process of continued meditation, which is not just like sitting down on a pillow for 8 or 30 minutes or whatever. But it's like washing my face with intention and it's putting on my shoes with intention. It's conducting myself with others with intention. Just living in a more connected way so that I have easier access to the self, to the heart. So that will become strong enough to outweigh the ego.
From Isaac -
The depression that I've experienced in my life has been more violent and hurtful. Um, because I didn't choose to be depressed and you normally don't choose to be depressed. And it's like this cloud comes into town and you're like, where the hell did this cloud come from? And you're like, all these things in my life are so wonderful. The nouns are all in place. The actions are all like, I have everything I want, but why do I feel depressed? And maybe that's a feeling of being stuck because the only thing that I can do when I'm in that place of depression, ah, that hurts. It's like I just, I really have to breathe.
And so if you're stuck you become, I think, very inflexible. I think you have to acknowledge that you're only stuck because you're not being flexible. You're not listening. You know, own that. Fucking own being stuck. It's on you. There's no reason you're the one that's making yourself stuck. You're stuck because you want to be stuck and being stuck doesn't have to be a bad thing. I think I was talking about it like it was [a bad thing], but I had to hear that and and be like, oh wait, being stuck can be cool.
From Danny -
One of the worst, saddest things about trauma is that things have been so bad that you go out into life from that environment and you don't even realize when you're been given good things you don't even realize that good things you have or that are in front of you, that you have no capacity to understand why you have it. You feel like you don't deserve it and you have no capacity to actually like soften enough to take it in because that requires a tremendous amount of trust and that's literally what I am finding for the very first time in my life at 31 years old!
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it's been a lot of like moving things that are stuck internally, and feelings of: “why don't I know what to do with myself right now?” And then sitting in my room and meditating or doing some sort of energy healing practice or spiritual practice and finding a whole bunch more bullshit from my childhood and moving through that that that creates flow again in places where things were stuck. It’s almost always a result of negative programming and trauma from my past that creates the stuck-ness.